Have you ever had.

Have you ever had that one person who literally meant the world to you? Who you really couldn't live without? I used to have one of those People, a best friend. We loved each other but not in a romantic way, only Ina way that we understood. She walked in to my life with ought asking permission, she walked in and sat down in he middle of my heart. I cared about her more than anything, and she cared about me. I had her for so long, I took her for granted, didn't know there was a life where I didn't have her. I didn't think I could servive in that world.

But I gues I can. Because she's gone now.  She walked away but she didn't take the part of me that cared about her so much, no she left that part. She walked away and it seemed as though she forgot. Which I don't understand. She hurt me more than anything had ever hurt before, worse than the worst physical Pain because people can't see it, they can't take you to s doctor to makeit go away. It haunts you forever, hanging over your head.  And people say "make new friends!", hats not how it works ok? You expect me because I seem fine, to be fine. Meybe I'm better at hiding it then you think. Because I'm not fine. I'm torn to shreds.