The side that you won't see

There is a side of me that I just won't let you see
I just can't, it makes me feel as small as an ant
The side of me that wants to scream but plasters on a smile instead.
It's there a lot. But I don't let you see, that side of me.
It's the part that remembers the old times when everything was perfect
When I knew I already had what I wanted, needed. Sometimes all I can do is laugh to keep the tears from coming down. When I remember how it used to be, when you used to be there.